The end of it.

Sometimes I wonder why I am like this.
Where I get the attitude I just do not care anymore about anything.
This is how I feel, the confusion leads me to hell.
I have no place to rest in this confusion.
It is as if I am just standing in a room full of doors.
Moving my head around and around
Spinning around and around
Which door? Which door?
Where is the key? Which door will unlocked?
Where is my heart?
Where is my mind?
Where is my soul?
All in this confusion, tears stream down my face.
The light is blinding me.
The darkness is over powering me.
Everyone watching, waiting for me to walk through the door.
The spot light shining through the darkness.
Those watching do not see that the darkness is full.
Full of lies, full of pain, full of sorrow.
The thoughts that run through my mind.
Never will I know what they are.
To many to many to many to care.
Their touch is burning, their touch is pain.
Lord I have no where else to go.
Lord I fall on my knees to your feet.
Lord these tears come and wipe them away.
Lord open the door to my path.
Where do I go I can not go anymore longer.
The pain Lord you know how I feel
Lord you know the thoughts running through my mind
The thoughts I can not even capture.
I am in so at the brink of this life,
Lord give me a new life, a new will to keep going.
A new heart so I can love like you do.
Give me the obedience Lord to keep running this path.
Give me the words to sing through this darkness.
Let me shine as a testimony with only your light.
Not with the light of this world.

"So I will run into Your open arms I've got nowhere else to go."
~The Count by The Classic crime.